these 2 hamsters were my very first hamsters. i still remember the day when i went into the pet shop at boon keng, hoping to get 2 decent hamsters.

i first stepped into the shop and darted over to the cages of hamsters. but i only like the white ones. this fellow is so not shy. i looked into the cage, she is the only one standing there looking at me, and then jumping and running around the cage after that. while the other hamsters all hide at one corner of the cage. there i was thinking. this hamster is the one.

and there, i've got fatfat. then after that the pet shop owner who look like my youngest uncle, got me another hamster, which is baby.

their initial names for fatfat(female) and baby(male) respectively were, bubble and jay. because of the influence of my maple character and my maple friend eirik at that point of time. but their names got changed after that, because it's easier to call, and it really describes them. fatfat for her size, and baby for his gentleness.

they started out living in those small fish tanks. and when they grew bigger. my mother bought a bigger cage. which is the one i'm still using now. i treated them like how i would treat myself. haha. not saying that i am a hamster or something.

but unfortunately, fatfat died first. her body have lumps, and we also don't know the reason for it. my mother thinks it might be cancer. but we did not seek any help on it.

when fatfat die, i did not accept that she's dead. i keep telling my mother she's still alive, don't throw her away, or bury her. and i tried shaking the cage, even though i know she's dead. i just wouldn't accept the truth. because when she was alive, she's a really good companion. she listens to me when i talk, i feed her food by hand, i play with her, and everyone likes her because she's so cute and fluffy. but she die. and my mother bury her after that in the flower pot outside my house. i cried, when she's dead. it's the kind of feeling of losing something and never getting it back.

and then baby was left with himself. and he died after a few months later. i think it's out of loneliness from losing a companion, or hunger staying inside the hamster ball too long or just being old. the day before, i put him in the hamster ball, and i forgot to put him back into the cage because i was rushing assignment that night, and was dead beat. i don't know if it was because of that or not. the next day i put him back into the cage, he was active for awhile, and then after that he collapsed on his side. and then he died. and mummy bury him at the same pot where she buried fatfat.

that day it struck me bad. i was really crying damn badly, i cried for a long while also. because there's that empty space in my heart that's not filled up, and was used to be filled up by my fatfat and baby. it's really so sad losing both cute hamsters. and they did not have any babies.

but this was all last last year 2008. now, i've 9 hamsters currently. :)